several months ago, I became a born-again atheist.
Needless to say, I don't mention this much at AA meetings, but I did bring it up
while chairing a meeting at a local recovery center.
I think I've always been an atheist, but during the first year of recovery, I needed to externalize a higher-power because I needed the help, however illusory it might have been.
dunno why I'm sharing that.